Truth Behind the Eyes

Asria is frustrating.

figures

Now I rather expect a woman to be frustrating. It seems to come with the gender. Written into the basic cellular structure of femininity.

And Asria has a reason to be more frustrating than usual .. I know this is hard on her. I know the sorrow of loss and I know the reality that she is facing without that strong hand at her side. The responsibility she carries for Lei upon her shoulders alone now.

Asria approached me today while I was riding with the others. She told me Serge had been around again. I asked her .. if she wanted him around. To me .. it was a basic question that needed only a basic answer. One of those .. yes or no questions that in my head was simple enough.

But no. She told me there were worse men to have around.

huh

What the hell does that mean? Does she like him there .. does she want me to send him on his way? Is it just too soon and she wants him there but feels perhaps it is better to throw me in the mix to put a stamp of social acceptance on it?

I told her that .. yes ... there were worse men to have around but there were better ones also.

But that was not enough to get any kind of answer from her .. I finally asked her if she wanted me to speak to Serge .. to make sure of his intentions. And if I was convinced they were within the bounds of honor .. did she want him there?

She said there were worse men to have around.

huh

I think I got it. I think she wants him there but it is too early to say she wants him there because people will think she is moving too fast after the death of Trayu. I do not think she disrespects Trayu .. I think she is just lonely and wishes for the company of a man. And if Serge's intentions are honorable .. his company will not be a bad thing while she heals her mind and heart.

I do not like Serge. But the part of Serge I do not like is a part that only comes over him in battle. He has never shown himself to be anything but a good Tuchuk warrior otherwise. There are better men than Serge.

But then again .. as Asria so succinctly pointed out ... there are worse.