I Would Rather Face a Black Mask

I never had a mother. It leaves me slightly suspicious of some of the tendencies in women .. especially when they are directed at me. I find it unnerving .. in a way I am not used to having to problem solve. Not many people enter my personal space .. and yet there are enough of them that I do problem solve this on a regular basis .. however not many people enter my space in a "mother" sort of way. Which is a distinct sort of way different from all others.

I take care of my hands well enough .. they are hands ... they are my hands. I need them. I make use of them in a way I would not be the man I am .. without them. They are rather important to me and to what I do. So I take care of them. I just do not take care of them in the way that some do. I do not try to get rid of the calluses .. they protect me. They are there for a reason .. in places I need them to be. If my hands get dry enough that they start to crack I will use some oils on them .. that rarely happens though since I am working with leather and oils enough in my daily tasks to prevent it .. mostly. If I break a nail .. I chew it off if it gets in my way ... snags on something. I do not have time to care for them like a female. I do not see this as dysfunctional.

However .. this view was not shared by Cana. Who entered my space in a "mother" sort of way because I was chewing on my thumbnail.

I would rather have faced a entire legion of Vaci .. or a couple of well trained Black Masks. And I am one of them .. I know what that means. And I would still have rather done either one of those things. There is just not enough courage in a man for this. I have faced every challenge to my courage imaginable and I have not disappointed myself. But this ... this is not even in the realm of courage a man can possess. There is no training .. no shield ... no evasive maneuvers....

And now all the nails on one hand are filed and strait and all the ones on the other hand look normal and rough and I am even more unnerved by the entire thing.

Turia does not stand a chance against the Tuchuk if our women spot any kind of dysfunctional hand care.

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