I Can Show You How

Mezoo said .. "There is another question I want to ask."

It was with some trepidation that I said .. "Yes?"

Sky only knew what she was going to throw out there this time.

It was Clan related though and as she spoke there was a slow exhale of relief .. basic Tuchuk questions ... now these I could handle. She told me that Tarra had spoken to her of a fifth element .. and that Tarra had called it heart.

I told her Mezoo that I had heard it called many things. Heart .. spirit ... love even. There were as many interpretations out there as there were people who thought about the subject. She asked me if it was something that I would teach her and I told her that I could .. if she wished ... teach her my interpretation. I told her that .. it would manifest itself to her differently than it might to Tarra or to me. That learning it .. was learning her own understanding of it. I told her that for me .. it was spirit. That this element revealed itself to me .. in the form of spirits. Not dead people ... spirits. Energies of those things around us. That I could speak to them .. they could speak to me.

She said she could feel love from those around her .. her family ... that sometimes she could feel the spirit in people what they were feeling that was more than they conveyed in words.

I told her that I would take her to meet them .. she would know then if this was to be something that was a part of her. I told them that they were stronger in the South than in the North. She did not seem to understand why that would be. I told her that every year .. in the North ... they cut more trees and built more walls and broke the spirit of the land around them. There were fewer in the North every year I returned.

She asked me if I would tell her .. of my time with them. I told her I would .. if she wished. I told Mezoo that I do not seek them like most .. I have my own way. She asked me .. in learning these things ... if I would teach her ways to use them to help others. As Oren and her mother helped those around them with their Clan knowledge. I studied her for a moment before I told her that I would .. if she wished.

I explained to her that most of what I did as a Haruspex was not so public. That my understandings were in dreams .. in the mind. That although I had training for such things .. my chosen way was to explore those more .. and only when the Clan brought me someone .. did I practice them openly. I had no need to earn my way .. I had been Ubar ... I had managed my responsibilities well .. I had all I would ever need. It left me free within the Clan to do as I pleased .. to pursue as I wished.

She told me some of what she had done with Ayguili. I asked her why she had stepped from her own training. She told me .. that the need was greater than herself. I told her .. that she had then learned a valuable lesson. That breaking the rules comes with a price .. always. But sometimes ... it was worth it.

She told me some of the circumstances. I asked her some specific questions .. mapping what had taken place into my head so I could understand more clearly. I told her what she had done was rarely attempted even by some Elders. That she needed to be careful what and how much she took from people. That she was fortunate .. but her gift needed to be ringed and reined before she hurt herself .. or as she added ... someone else. I added .. that giving it back? Was a completely different gift.

She told me that she was glad it was me .. teaching her. That I seemed to walk with the things inside her instead of trying to change them .. or bend them to my will. I told her that it was my way. To walk with .. not against ... those energies. That my battles for the most part .. were within. Not always was I so easy on myself.

She asked me if there were things that I wished to ask her .. learn of her. I told her there were many things ... but that I had learned much just in the time I had spent talking to her there that day.

It was then that a warrior approached the Clan fire .. seeking me.