Seeker of Peace

In my habitual seeking of peace at the stream I was joined by Arigh and blue ..

Arigh asking to speak to me alone for a bit .. which I of course allowed. We spoke briefly on a few things .. one being she wished for blue to be able to serve her again which I gave permission for with the understanding that if it became a huge problem like it had before .. the two of them would be separated again.

I have no desire to constantly fix slaves so they can please everyone. Either the slave figures it out because those people give the slave their preferences or they do not and I will negate the service of that slave to that person until the breakdown in communication between them can be resolved. I can not make a slave pleasing to all .. I can make a slave pleasing to me. I am enough to worry about. If they want a slave to be perfect for them they should get their own slave. Or spend the time with the slave to earn the slave's respect enough that the slave serves them in the way they demand. And that can be good respect or respect by fear. I really do not care either way. As long as the slave is not damaged beyond her ability to serve. That .. would annoy me. Especially since those people who have the most problems with how they are served are the ones bitching if they are not served.

When Arigh and I returned to the stream blue asked to speak to me and I enquired as to what it was about. She said it was about the day before .. that she had chuckled out of delight of my words .. they tickled her and made her happy. And I replied .. and? She said .. she wanted me to know it was not because she was mocking me.

I thanked her for correcting me .. and I told her I would keep that in mind for the future.

She said she really did not want me to keep that in mind for very long.

I stared at her and asked her .. why? Did she wish me to forget her words so swiftly and easily .. especially when she had just given them to me?

She said she was not here to correct me .. nor did she wish to correct me.

And I said to her .. that is what you are doing .. is it not? Or .. am I mistaken ... again.

She said .. "no master you are not mistaken."

"Somehow .. I thought not."

"I just...I don't know how to let you know how I feel....when it does not match how you see I feel Master."

"I think you just did a rather good job of it blue .. so what is the problem?"

"Because I would like to do it without displeasing you by correcting you. I would like to learn how to do it with something that would not upset you or displease you or rile you further."

"I am not riled. If you want to correct my view of your feelings .. there is only one way to do it ... and that is to correct it."

"I guess that is just it Master.....I don't....want to correct you. But I also don't want you to think I felt the way I did. Which I know means me better showing you how I feel. And since I did such a poor job of that yesterday, I just thought...maybe I could tell you, Master. But it doesn't work that way."

"No?"

"It doesn't feel like it Master, no."

"Perhaps you should explain it then ... sounds to me like you have a problem. You do not want me to think something about your feelings that you do not believe to be true yet you also do not wish to correct me on it."

"Yes master that is my problem."

"I would work on that then."

"I will Master. I don't know how but I will try. What would you like me to explain Master?"

"At this point .. I think I understand your problem."