A Sense of .. Accomplishment?

I found myself in the desert far past that place of in-between. I found myself upon the blood red kaiila .. lance in hand. The great shifting sands always moving beneath the massive paws of the beast. The wind biting at my cheeks and eyes. I pulled my wind scarf up to protect my mouth from the sand but it did little good .. I could feel it in my teeth. Soon my face and my hair .. my hands and clothes were gray with dust .. raw from the sharp bits blown so constantly against me.

From the sea of sand came forth monsters .. great beasts the like I had never seen before. They came with blood on their fangs and hunger in their eyes. They came for me. I fought them until I was so tired .. so sore and bloody. I fought them but they would not die .. would not cease to be. Every wound from the lance or kaiila instantly healed .. their flesh reformed. I fought them until the blood red kaiila ran with sweat .. his great lungs gasping for air between my knees. I fought them until I could not fight them any more. And I waited for the great beasts to devour me.

I saw then a small boy. With black hair and black eyes. He wore a very serious expression as if .. it was his only expression. He was much too serious for his age. Where were the songs .. the cries of mock battle with his comrades ... the color of first experiences? But his eyes were old and tired for the things that he had all ready seen .. seen too early ... too soon.

The boy held up his hand and bid the wind to be still and the sand to stop moving. He bid the great monstrous beasts to be quiet and leave .. and they obeyed. I marveled at his power but a part of me expected it I think .. that he could do this. I was not sure how I suspected that. I asked the boy .. "Why am I here .. in the desert. Why am I always here now?"

He replied to me in a soft subdued voice tinged with youth and flavored by ageless wisdom .. "I am the connection to all now. You must come through me to speak to the others. I know the creator. I watched it all as it was formed from the beginning."

I was confused ..the beast and I still breathing deep ragged breaths. "The creator? You watched as the creator formed what? The desert? Something more? This is not how I was taught to walk."

"What you were taught is no longer viable. I have been sent to you as a connection to the others. This is where you must begin every journey .. every quest. You must understand this place before you can leave it behind."

I wiped at the sweat as it stung my eyes. "Why? What have I done? Have I not shouldered every punishment for every wrong I have committed here? Have I not done as I was bidden? Who has set this great land between for me to conquer?"

"You did.. of course."

"But .. but wait ..." It was too late .. the desert faded .. the sand eased away from me. The boy was the last to go but he did not answer my questions for I was tossing in my furs .. struggling to free myself from them .. from pink's small embrace .. gasping for cool air.

What did he mean .. I did?