A Gift

Well .. that was my intent anyway. Instead I was waylaid by Pacu who was butchering a bosk. I stopped to help and took a couple of haunches. One for Silken and one for the main fires. As we worked Pacu and I got a chance to talk more. Renewing our friendship like brothers. It was almost like old times. Two Tuchuk in the cold morning bathed in bosk blood cutting the meat up for family and friends. There is nothing better.

When I got back by my wagon I saw that Yamka .. the prospect to the First Wagons ... seems to have mentioned me to her family for a gift of stew.. bread ... milk and honey candy was left for me. I was pleased. It had a way of making me feel more .. normal.

People have changed much. Not in a way that I would say was bad .. or good. Just the natural changes we all go through only I was not here to go through them with everyone so it is more stark and .. bigger .... to me.

Some are changes that attract me to that person. Others are changes that seem to create distance. There is more than one person who has not forgiven me for being away. I understand that and do not blame them for their feelings. I would probably feel much the same way if it were I in their place.

I have renewed some friendships .. lost some ... look forward to finding new ones. I am learning the dynamics of the new ways around the First Fires. Most all of it I am pleased with .. personal opinion. We all have them. Some of course I disagree with but will support Ba'atar as I expected people to support me. I ask .. of course ... because it is my way. The Inquisitor himself I suppose. Always asking .. always mapping human behavior to better navigate my place on the plains.

If there is one person that .. if asked ... I must say has changed the most it would be Cana. Now do not get me wrong ... she is still the same Cana who I can honestly say was my best friend among those at the fires. Her motherly instincts .. her quiet calming wisdom. But since I have been gone I must notice that she has blossomed. I do not know if it is the boys .. she has four now. Or if it is the position she has taken as Ubara. Whatever has done it I am more pleased than I can say to see her grown into such a woman. I can not say I am surprised or that I would not have predicted such a thing .. Spex aside. For I have seen her work tirelessly at any task life has given her. But the actuality of seeing it and experiencing it is an honor.